It feels really strange writing other posts before this one because I’ve been dying to let everyone know.
I’M PREGNANT!!!
That’s right, I’m pregnant! I can barely believe it, still! I’m 13 weeks along, just about done with my first trimester and I’m still in shock. I just can’t believe that it happened.
No one will ever convince me that this wasn’t a miracle. It definitely was NOT supposed to be able to happen when it did. With only one working ovary, and them supposedly having to alternate each month, it just wasn’t supposed to work. In fact, even when I felt some symptoms creeping up on me, I didn’t even think to take a pregnancy test because it was literally impossible for it to be true. But, it is. It’s true. And in January, we’ll have a precious little baby of our own. It’s a miracle.
It’s been hard for me to understand how we’ve been so blessed. As long and as hard as it was for us, in the scheme of things, 2 years is not that long when it comes to dealing with infertility. Many others wait years and years and years before being blessed with a child of their own. And, I just don’t understand why some of them had to wait longer and how I am so blessed so quickly. I’m certainly not complaining :), but I wonder sometimes.
I know my story is quite a bit different because I pretty much knew from the time I was a teenager that I would have difficulty getting pregnant. So we didn’t wait very long (only about 4 months) before seeing our first doctor about it. I mean, I was seeing an infertility specialist a little over a year after we first started trying. Many couples wait a lot longer than that. I was very proactive, and that was extremely hard because being proactive doesn’t mean you have control over anything, but luckily, doctors were able to find out what was wrong fairly quickly. We truly are blessed. I only hope I can be the best mother I can in order to show my gratitude to the Lord.
Courtney! I'm so excited for you!! I got all emotional sitting here reading this. Whatever the length or type of trial we experience, what's most important is what we get out of it. Clearly, you have gained faith and trust in the Lord, patience in His timetable, and compassion for others... just to name a few. This pregnancy is a miracle, for sure! And, really, each new life that is created is a miracle, though there might be some who don't see it as clearly if it has always come easy. Enjoy the growth and development of your little miracle and get ready to have the time of your life!!! You are going to be a fantastic mother!
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